Then you took it back
You put me to an endless death
And left me bleeding
Drowning and slowly dying
In this misery.
Pakialamero
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palibhasa wala kang kaibigan
kaya malungkot ang buhay mo
puro karma dumadating sayo
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akala mo magaling ka, pero ang totoo isa kang hangal.
I thought…
October 28, 2008I thought its the end
I thought its over
I thought there’s nothing more
But its getting worst
Endless pain
Tears I’ve paid
Endless road
With you I walk
Unbreakable string
Tied up within
Inescapable bond
Seems I lost my will
You put walls around me
Can’t even move
You’re free as the air
For you think I’m bound to you
As I look above
I can see it clear
I can even feel
One day, I’ll get out of here.
I dont understand why….
August 7, 2008 No tears have fallen All I have are… Doubts Im putting an end.. But I was left in the middle.. All I know… …is I no longer care.
No pain in my heart
Not even missing
Not feeling anything
Questions
Speculations
The End..
July 30, 2008 So many questions, but I dont wanna ask I dont have a shield for I am not in a battle Not so sure about the truth No more trust for anyone
So confused, but I don’t even wanna rush
So blinded, and I dont wanna see
But maybe, this is meant to be.
But Im totally hurt, wounded and bleeding
Broken, crushed and screaming
No words coming out from me.
Not so sure if this is good
Not sure if they are right
But I know I have the right
I’d rather keep my mouth shut
I’ll close my eyes and never look back
Never will I give another chance.
Unforgiven
July 29, 2008 Today, I heard the words Today, I felt the worst
I never expect to hear
Words that I fear
Words that could kill
I wanna burst into tears
But refuse to fall
As I fall into the abyss.
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Rollercoaster
July 2, 2008 Flying in the sky Suddenly a twist At the top again Yet, its exciting
Almost reach the heaven
Weightless like a wind
Emotions overflowing
A heavy load on a chest
Feels like endless
and helpless
Then at the bottom
In the middle
Turning round
Upside down
and fun.
Blank
June 24, 2008I feel no more…
I fear no more…
No thoughts..
No emotions..
Totally shielded
and covered.
D and A
June 12, 2008 Months have passed
I kept it all inside
Vanished all the love
For hatred burned like a fire
I tried to forget
And refused to look back
I tried to move on
Buried the memories
But didnt work out
I denied the fact
Denied the truth
I lived in lies
Til time passes by
Fate brought us back
Love find its way
For us to reunite.
Crazy Feeling
January 29, 2008This one is so hard to handle
Has no right, and no control of it
Not even sure if its worth
But its consuming my all
My strength, my confidence
My sanity, my life.
The Calling
I need not to be clear
Need not what I’ve got
I think not for myself
And I would trade nor sell
Only 3 that matter to me
So I’d rather be burned
Than to see what I fear.
I’m inlove
January 10, 2008..with his smile, with his eyes, the way he look, specially the way he moves. I love watching him. Everything about him. His style, his excellency, his knowledge and beliefs, and how he applies it.
For me, he’s "THE ONE" that I will always adore.
He is " FEARLESS" and so tough.
His greatness has been "UNLEASHED" at the right time.
He never wore a " BLACK MASK" in real, for he shows what he really is.
He is like a " HERO" that touches the hearts and lives of many
A " FIST OF LEGEND" for his enemies is like a " KISS OF THE DRAGON".
He will always be the best, and my ‘ROMEO MUST never DIE" in my heart.
You
January 6, 2008Yes, you. Its you that I see in my dreams, in my sleep, before I close my eyes, and even when Im awake. Its you that I always think about, and I feel like Im gonna drop my guard. Yes, you. Only you.
New Year’s Eve
December 31, 2007I want to write about something, but I don't know where to start. I'm feeling mixed emotions at this moment and I have lots of things in mind.
But one thing I'm sure about, is that I'm happy. 
I can't write what I really feel so I'll just end it up here.
Friday Night
December 8, 2007My officemates and I went out and drink somewhere near our building. I'm not supposed to drink beer as it is bad for me coz I have an allergy. Its hard, coz I cant eat lots of food such as chicken, seafoods, bagoong, chocolate. But I was thinking that I'll just take my meds so I ordered Redhorse. Mhau got San Mig Light while we wait for our two officemates Jessie and Jackie. When they arrived, we ordered Crispy Pata. Nevermind those food I've mentioned above as long as I can eat crispy pata and Liempo. Those are really my favorites. The night was young and we're starting to have a good time as well as the people around. We sang couple of songs. I took couple of Redhorse. When we got our bill, me and Mhau started to argue for a very cheap reason. Maybe we were both a little tipsy that time. Its not new to us. We always fight. We are really close thats why we're like this. We're like sisters. I walked out that night. Brian were calling me but I kept on rejecting his call. I dont want to talk that time. I was thinking that they were still together and might ask me to come back. So I turned off my cellphone. I felt really bad. We were supposed to have fun but it end up like that. The night screwed up.
Yesterday, Aug 1.
August 2, 2007Very bad day. I have encountered irritating people when I was on my way home. I've failed to do important things. I've made couple of mistakes. Fuck! shit!
gotik
March 23, 2007
He's living inside me all these years. But he fell asleep for a long time. Cant feel his presence then, though I know he's just there. Now he's awake, running thru my veins, controlling my entire system as he used to. I know he will never fail.
Just leave,if you cant stay
November 8, 2006 U choose to leave But you’re still there U said you care Now I dont believe Why cant you just leave If you cant stay here Why cant you just leave me alone And live with your own I want to run away from you And forget about you You’re holding me back But you’re not asking me back I dont wanna look I dont wanna listen I dont wanna feel Coz I know Im gonna fall all over again.
Wasted time
October 26, 2006
If I only knew I woudnt waste my time All the things you dont deserve But I think its a lesson for us I have learned and easily overcome You will realize in the end And will be like others Tried to turn back the time But its too late You will taste what you havent tasted before You will never find what you seek Coz I've taken it all from you.
