ANONYMOUS

I always got a missed call in the middle of the night using the same number which I mentioned before. I never got a reply from this anonymous, mysterious owner of that number. I have a feeling that this person has unfinished business or somehow our heart and mind are connected with each other because I can feel and I understand the purpose.

CONFESSION OF A TRUE SATANIST

I will never forget about the story of a satanist which I have read in a magazine long time ago. I forgot the name of the magazine already, but every details of the story is still clear in my mind. It was very interesting and I believe that it really happen to that guy.

The story is about a guy who confessed that he was once a satanist. He was from a broken family. He always wants to be alone. His friends from school told him about the cult which they also found out thru common friends. They want to join the cult just for curiosity. They encouraged him and so they went. The place was somewhere in Sampaloc, Manila. They met an old “meztizo” guy who seems the caretaker of the house. They were informed that if they are going to join the group, they must stay and live there for a week to prove their faith and must become the servants of the higher priest and the pagans. They were all excited that time.

They get to meet all the pagans, but they are not allowed to look straight to their eyes, coz for them, its a sign of dispect. They serve them to prove their faith.They learned that night that there’s a “Black Mass” will be held at the house. They sneaked and witnessed the rituals that only those pagans or the higher members are allowed to performed. They eat flesh and drink blood. They have their own black Bible and recites satanic prayers while wearing a black cloak. After the Black mass, some of the pagans performed orgy.

To prove his faith, he even burned the bible in their house, draw pentagrams on his notebooks, vandalizing on the walls, they were brainwashed by the pagans to do such things. One day, one of a member gave him an inverted cross. He wears it everyday. He started to have nightmares, his girlfriend said he even speaks “latin” words without knowing it. When he look in a mirror, he dont recognize himself anymore. He’s getting uglier everyday. He’s starting to become a monster.

That’s when he realized that he should leave the group. He spoked to one of his friends who encouraged him to join and he was advised that its ok for him to leave the group, just dont say bad things about the group because they will haunt him. That’s what he did. He left the group and didnt say anything until couple of years had passed. He never went back to that place. He just heard that the old meztizo guy had died after a year.And the pagans had already moved to another place.

He promised himself that he will go to church every Sunday coz he realized that what he did was wrong. And he already found the light.

I dreamt of you last night..

 

I dreamt of you last night.

After this silent fight

I was holding by someone else’s hand

While you secretly staring at me



You opened your mouth

But no words came out

Your eyes speak to me instead

These things that you will never comprehend



What you are trying to give me

I took it before it was given to me

I answered back a long time ago
But you already turned your back on me.

boring..

no gimmick tonight.

and….

I miss someone.

I miss him.

Tomorrow

I dont know why i'm so excited everytime me and bhau bhau are going to watch a movie. We always watch movies together, but still I always get excited as if its the first time that we will watch on a big screen. Sometimes I'm so "mababaw talaga".

Actually, we're supposed to have a gimik tomorrow. Suddenly, there's a change of plan. And now, I'm not sure, if we're going or not. So, we decided to just watch a movie tomorrow. We both promised we're gonna see this one and we won't gonna let it pass.

My Birthday

I celebrated my birthday last Saturday, February 26, 2005. We all had fun that night. But I’m a little disappointed that Anna & Val, Jason & Tess wasn’t able to come due to inevitable instances. But ofcourse I understand their reasons. Also, unexpected visitors came. No need to mention names. I’m glad that everything went good and organized. I promised myself that I will control myself. Coz I’m a type of person who are easily irritated, sensitive, and hot headed specially when I drink.

I did it.

Nobody was hurt emotionally, ha ha ha.

last night……

I arrived at home yesterday around 9 in the evening. Suddenly, unfamiliar number appeared on my cellphone, I answered the phone, but the one on the other line, didn’t answered. I texted but never replied.

Lying on my bed at 10 but I can’t sleep. I fell asleep past midnight. Around 1 in the morning, my phone rang. I checked my cellphone, 1 messaged received, and 2 missed calls, it was the same number. I sent a message, but then again, never replied.

I just told myself that maybe somebody is missing me that time. And maybe thats why I can’t sleep last night, coz I miss someone.

Same old story

History repeats itself. I am numb and I feel nothing. You can never hurt someone who’s already dead. But I have a soul. And my soul sees everything. I am your home. You will find your way soon. But don’t expect that the door is always open.

My angel in the night…

i miss someone, my angel in the night. He haven’t visit me in my sleep for quite a long time. He always roam around, trying to find out if there’s another soul out there where he can lay his heart. I still can feel him and still waiting for his comeback. But I shall not wait forever. If he can’t find his way, or purposely forget his way, then he is destined to roam forever.

3 LIBRAS- Perfect Circle

Threw you the obvious and you flew with it on your back
A name in your recollection down among a million same
Difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed and passed over
When I’ve looked right through to see you naked but oblivious
And you don’t see me
But I threw you the obvious just to see
If there’s more behind the eyes of a fallen angel eyes of a tragedy
Here I am expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded
But I see see through it all see through and see you
Cause I threw you the obvious to see
What occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel eyes of a tragedy
Oh well apparently nothing, apparently nothing at all
You don’t see me you don’t see me at all

Comment:

3 Libras is one of my favorite song. It has a very deep meaning. The Libra is the zodiac sign characterized by scales, justice or judgment. I believe its Father, Son and the holy Ghost.The song is about not finding fulfillment with Christianity and with God.

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